They had been gone in foreign corners of the hovering worlds, in new places, three powerful gods in denial of their powers. They were returning home defeated, forsaken, lost, each to whom could still recall their names.

One of them returned to me with eyes grey with grief and carrying on his shoulders a weight heavier than thoughts could bear. Tired, breathing slowly, abandoned himself in arms that could still feel their essence by means of pure faith and hands that were still able to soothe the pain. His eyes began glowing crimson as vengeful harbingers of the disease, scarred by the too much misery they have witnessed, ghostly holograms of what they once were.

He blinked for a split second – not an abyss, but a mirror so magnificent, victorious and powerful once more… then died in my arms.

Obsessive song of the day: VNV Nation – Rubicon.

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Round and round, ever inwards… ever descending.

Look back, think of the people that left a mark on your lifetime – a thin line, little segments, fancy images and lots of notes stashed away in an imaginary carton box of memories. You kissed them in silent moments of gratitude, you crumpled them when the hatred was too overwhelming and burned them when despair was devouring your very mind.

Look at yourself now and identify those patterns inside you, in your way of behaving, in your way of treating the other elements and beings with whom you interact. Discover them with amazement, with joy, with skepticism. With closed eyes. And acknowledge them, and respect them for what they are by never taking them for granted.

Round and round, ever outwards… ever ascending.

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Offering advice seems to be one of those things that have a funny tendency of developing and spreading almost like a chain reaction.

While in a local supermarket, looking at some rather green bananas, I found myself suddenly showered with all sorts of tips and tricks on how to ripen them at home. First, a lady told me that they must be wrapped or put on newspaper (I didn’t get that part quite well, I wasn’t really paying any attention to the people around me). Then, a second one said that they must be placed near a window, or in a place with more light. Even before she finished saying that and while I was smiling awkwardly and trying to offer my thanks, a third one interfered to tell me that what the previous lady said was true, but that by no means should I put them out on the balcony, because the room must be warm.

I thanked them almost unnoticed, as they passionately continued their conversation on topics such as efficient ways of warming their homes, the cold outside, the prices and the quality of the products and so on and so forth.

I picked a bunch of bananas and made my way as quickly as possible to pay for them, slightly amused by the fact that – no offense or disrespect meant – I love my bananas a bit green and pretty much dislike them when they’re all yellow and ripe and too sweet.

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I’ve got back to Bucharest after my ever-too-short winter holiday to see a white city, all covered with snow, waves of wintry white flowing and growing and swallowing all the former ugliness away. And it keeps on snowing. I know about the heavy traffic conditions, the extremely cold temperatures and all the other problems, but this time I don’t care. This time, I want to go back in time and enjoy the laughters, the jingles, the snowballs, the snowmen, the snowhouses, all the gifts, the mittens, the scarves, the wool socks, the effort of carrying the sled three floors up, the few minutes spent in front of the door with my parents brushing all the snow away from me and laughing and saying that it can’t be me, it must be a snowman…

I’ve got two more weeks of uni till the exam session starts. Unlike most of the other people, I have to do my best during these weeks and get high grades, so that instead of that exam session I can have my proper winter holiday… for a month. Work, work, work.

My cats have grown fat and furry in their winter “coats”, still lazy, still easily scared, still sleeping in the spaces that form between my head and my shoulders and still play like mad with the tiny laser point thingie.

And… I’ve started playing World of Warcraft a few months ago, which is – for whomever wonders and aside from uni – one of the main reasons this blog has been shamelessly neglected lately.

Happy New Year!

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